Well hello there! It’s been quite awhile, hasn’t it? I sincerely apologize for my absence. I had a whole host of things going on for the past 4 months that took up my time and attention, including having my thyroid removed (whew!) but I promise I am going to make more and better attempts at maintaining this space. Life happens, and sometimes that means stepping away from things you love or want to invest your time in and that’s okay. This year though? I’m actually going to put in a solid effort, I promise!
Now, confession time: I LOVE making new years resolutions. I also break said resolutions within a month of making them. WHOOPS. Has that stopped me from making new ones this year? No, definitely not. But in addition to the list of things I want to change or try, I’m also incorporating a motto for my year. This year’s motto is one that I’ve fallen in love with because it’s simple but super effective: “Treat myself with respect and kindness.” Everything I do I want it to be done with the intent of respecting myself and treating myself with kindness, from how I move my body to how I think about my situation in life. I want to break my habit of automatically beating myself up and ignoring what my body wants and replace it with kindness, love and respect for myself.
It can be hard to ease up the reigns on yourself, to give yourself the space to breathe, live and forgive. I’ve struggled to allow myself that space for as long as I can remember, and it’s something that I don’t think will change as quickly as I’d like. That doesn’t mean that I’m not going to try my hardest to give myself the kindness, love and forgiveness I deserve though. Does this mean some major things will change? Yeah, probably. For one I’m not just going to sit around all day when my body craves exercise and I’m not going to swing by P. Terry’s for the millionth time rather than cook a yummy, far more nutritious dinner for myself. I’m also going to give myself love rather than keep a running list of my faults and flaws. Small, positive changes filled with love are what I’m aiming for.
This also means stepping out of my comfort zone to do the things I’ve been meaning and aching to do. Like, I have a list of tattoos I want to get, maybe this year I’ll get a couple. I have an ever growing list of restaurants and bars to try out in Austin and I’m making it a goal to go to two every month. Respect and kindness doesn’t just apply to how I treat myself; it extends to how I interact with the world around me. By keeping myself locked tight that means I’m not experiencing the things I want to be, so out of respect and kindness for my curious cat nature I’m going to put myself out there. WHEW!